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| 每次番完 JP 之後番完屋企, 再番到 hall 都係 physically tired but mentally recharged (發現近來大部份都是為各"類"的朋友祈禱 =] ) 因為知道大家在接著 week 都會一齊努力, though in different location =]
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 很老實的說 我一點也不掛念回家, 但這感覺令我有很大罪惡感 每次番屋企, emotion 無論 keep 住 starting pt有幾 gd... turn out 都可以係成個 week 的低潮 這是1人的問題, 其餘2人是無辜的 每一秒都被佢一個吵到無寧靜, 累死就算想訓都無得訓 不禁諗緊我CE AL係點過黎ge... 我記得尋日在家, 當我沉默地一人躺著, 容許自己暫時流幾滴眼淚時 我認真地覺得： 1) this is still some kind of cursed life 2) i doubt is there any human with personalities worse than him but i'm tired of pointless intervention, we all are
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 至於呢一樣...都唔知應該講咩好... 不過經過上次的 emotional breakdown之後 I'm now losing THAT equilibrium I was ironically proud of 雖然有D時候真係「自得其樂」 BUT AGAIN logic told me not to be too happy I just can't bare another breakdown 因為我無法不嚴肅認真 SO I don't want to give myself any hope SO I pray that GOD would guard my heart if it is not meant 這一秒 再次想起 Miss Hung 在過往 2 年講過ge野 It's all about TRUST WALK with GOD
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 病走左個 reading week...而家...就要做 readings...
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ = = 結果, 一路打一路迫緊自己每過幾行就將前面1,2行轉番做中文 ......成篇odd odd 地 | | |
| 突然醒起上左U住hall之後成日都無打xg...
再唔係就係呢個問：
Eng for non-local fd都睇到; 不過就deprive 晒 old fds & local fds
(不過自問成個gp講ge野你都聽唔明, 悶死, 長期咁樣, 人都癲)
ok, 好多好玩野都係借得記住ge...miss左D tim...
不過我相信往後的日子仲有好多
1) ar...I'm fine...more than fine...=]
though I often get no sleep now...因為唔想響 PBL到到某份 reading 時 dead
actually
my life have nth to complain about
2) these days I take myself every second as A CHRISTIAN, STARRIAN & SPEECHIAN
3) 點解免費樂器成日會自動轉到黎我手上 = ="
上次係屋企第2部10蚊的guitar...今次係屋企的第2部violin
諗緊帶多件樂器番hall...定係落得同violin I &琵琶一齊的入箱封塵命運
(講真真係諗過帶琵琶番hall, 不過超重...諗下好la...笛子會吵死人...都係諗下好la)
4) and I start to like SMS with my fds anytime for anything XD
5) can I ever manage to spare time for my OWN VOLUNTARY reading? =0=
& really wanna try to go to flora ho gym rm =w="
btw Kazaf：I can't open that .pdf of the detail / schedule or whatever it is last time 6) 前幾日開始發現：點解我一向差唔多咩sport or culture都玩
上到黎成個人摺晒......最後得出3個conclusion = ="
7) 到底係無聊無野做, or this way makes unit life more colorful = =?
8) 上左U之後覺得1個星期過得好快
轉眼又到weekend & sun for JP =] 9) 好鐘意響pantry 做野, 夠大夠光仲有夠人 =]
(ans to yr question) 10) 尋日由別人身上深切體會到咩叫衰開有條路 XD 11) 水樽同傘都分別在過去一個月離我而去 = ="
前幾日個天倒水咁倒......anyway 好彩響campus 朱仔借住先
水樽ar水樽 =w="......
(預左dem cheer會唔見水樽...所以第2次帶膠樽...當然, 都係唔見左 =] )
......仲未determine去買......希望個天唔好咁快再「倒水」 12) 好野尋日終於有得行山......成日都諗住去
結果上次跟小得佢地去都已經係2個幾月之前 13) 以前覺得港島的空氣令人想死...而家接受能力高左DD...
變左有 fresh air 都唔係即刻 clearly feel 到|
上次差D無聲同咳死之後......
加上呢幾日作息同食無定時......4餐食完4餐胃痛
醒係因為muscle cramp or 胃痛......
唔可以再咁落去
所以過完呢個 PBL problem後, 我決定響reading上「撻皮」番 XDD
anyway, I'll learn to take care of myself
which is one of the reason I decided to live in hall when I was asked to consider the 2nd time
不過人總會有D咳照灌凍野 ; 肚痛照食雪糕 ; 病照通宵的時候
14) I think I must learn harder to be a good family member
15) I finally traced what kind of communication problem i have = ="
it's the mind set default
THAT COMMUNICATION INTENTION GOT TO BE WITH PT / PURPOSE
that means I don't really expect what I'm going to say will lead to crap & unintelligible comments I figure it out when someone just say sth...
and I think it not necessary to reply by SAYING but DOING
OR what's other say is just......
so I decided not to say anything
and turns out that I was being expected to reply
is it some kind of autism-traits out of pervasive developmental disorders
or austistic spectrum disorder = =
If I have to "speech therapy" myself,
I may probably fail in the pt for "being able to hold a conversation" 16) 朋友, 快D約篤波or打波, 唔該 ; )
17) I did started to think I might need one for a short while before...
it turns out that I may not
this is SO not a game...and that is SO not necessary
18) 想像緊撻皮 rm visit 的後果 @_@" 如果唔撻...
可能要通成個week宵......問題係......好難R同我做得一樣少 rm visit 的人去 rm visit
19) 死, 又肚痛...- - | | |
| Finally I can spare time to type sth on xg...=V=" 1. The study is doing fine, I love my PBL, PBL gp mates and tutor very much =]
EXCEPT readings & reading form =V=" 2. I think we SPEECHIANS we have exciting and fun life in the coming 4 years 3. My left arm is still in pain due to the DT vaccination on Sat...
as for the right arm, the Hep B is okay...
my conclusion is that it depends on muscle contraction in pose during injection 4. Yesterday is the inter-unit swimming competition
- yes, with my pain left arm =]
- we 6,7/F were doing EXCELLENT in the water polo game!!!!!!!! yo~
- got ~ 10 hrs sleep in the last 3 days...(PBL, LECTURES, SWIMMING etc)
but I'm brain is running much better than just "56k" in PBL
sb's gd advice: YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF "QUAI" SOON if it continues
- when I was in the swimming pool playing water polo,
I FOUND SOMEONE I KNOW in sth like 9/F's unit-T
5. I DO enjoy the unit-o and any related events, I choose to sleep late =V="
coz READING READINGS & FINISHING READING FORM is a DUTY
which I'll NEVER let my self doing it roughly 6. It's the first time in my life to think that...
- even wholehearted devotion
- delay of some personal important matters
- rush here & there for others
still may NOT grant me others' recognition...@_@
If there's sth I should do better, plz let me know 7. Suddenly remember there's sth URGENT & IMPORTANT is not tackled yet
(I don't mean the readings and reading form) 8. I miss all JP-ers badly these day...
especially when I know I may not see u guys until the very end of Sept...
Miss my friends in CU too...never imagine my U life is with that less friend
How come Jason Ben and Kazaf choose not to live in hall =V="
9. Really find my room a little bit more like HOME with the guitar here =]
When I do the room visit, I found others' bed more like a cosy bed at home!! @@
I think I should keep thing less tidy later on =]"
10. We SPEECHIANS are having a SCHOOL UNIFORM DAY later~~ yo~
I am looking forward to our tutor's facial expression when she see us in PBL that day XDD
11. WHAT?! my first impression to others are QUITE? and RICH?
I just COULDN'T find a more OPPOSITE discription...=V=" 12. I hope every thing will be better later on 13. I started enjoying room visit these days even it means to sleep late
Just staying in my room and pantry is not interesting enough =]
who are free just find me~ XDD
14. reading READINS in this and all coming day-offs, hope that I'll learn to enjoy it... 15. I saw a dead PERIPLANETA AMERICANA in the 7/F pantry yesterday night...
THAT is sth I wish NOT to see MOST T_T
IF it was alive, I'd have screamed...= =
Thinking of Lofish's PERIPLANETA AMERICANA CATCHING MACHINE last week
It's just I want them to stay as far from my way and mind as it may = =
16. Trying to feel more like STARRIANS =] COMING GOALS:
- more room visits w/ my teddy bear or penguin
- READING READINGS more actively =V="
- learning to be KAYLOR...
The conditional reflex (learnt reflex) still exist everytime someone called Kitty...
I still prefer others calling me 企鵝 (Penguin) much more...=V="
- try not to feel down if someone just......=__= okay never mind
- try not to touch my guitar if I desperately need SLEEPING or READING
- add all unit mates in MSN and facebk | | |
| 1. 今天下年的聖樂讚美會真係good ar
小弟負責燈光...=v=" 不過有一野唔記得mute screen...另有一野執了生 =] 2. 坐骨神經痛真係好乞人憎 3. 多謝晒盧秉請大家食糖水, yeah~ =] 第一次去呢間食
(諗起exactly 2年前 SSH "retire" 時的 farewell 糖水)
[呢句爛 gag：2年後就deeply involved in SHS] 4. 今日好人的cam-man先生不停地提醒小弟要笑& relax
好耐無人話我聽, 我個樣超愁 (我都唔發覺...)
「做野太認真會死快D ga~ =]"」
(唔好get錯, 我搞燈光ga za, 唔係俾人影) 5. Sept 1就開學 T^T 由mon開到fri......sat 仲要去campus 抽血打針...... 6. 繼尋日7:xx pm拖大行李去Starr再更夜地拖empty行李back home之後...
決定再做一件一人做的喪事：明天試撞去搭金雞van... 7. 仲未知道除左行路, 仲有咩好的方法由PPDH經HKU番STARR...
(Just wish Dorothy is there too...T^T) 8. 2個之中衰果個, 我已經唔知道可以再容忍到咩程度
2個之中唔衰唔衰果個, 話我知「講人聽都無用, 人地係幫唔到你」 9. To me, Jekyll is conscience, while Hyde is the result of reality
好痛苦 10. 聽日就搬...=__=" 希望到時有人同我講下野......真係驚驚地......
2次以resident的身份上了7樓......
除左我同 guard講唔該, 同一個同層行過的女仔 hi 我之後......
基本上都係得個望同被人望......驚到無野講...... 11. 令人安慰的想法：我前日backpack「偷」運去的熊仔.....正在713等緊我 = v ="
我會影番D相俾各位大佬睇ga la......謝謝關心
12. 住hall 基本上係get rid of 很多 noise 同 troubling thought
though 我仍然 expect 坐骨神經痛同胃痛會長伴左右......
但係起碼想訓時有得訓先......
13. 我要快D搵番D補習去填補我的罪惡感 14. 我決定一定唔可以俾自己頹!! 有notebook用前就係咁查經 15. 必要時, dum自己去 flora ho sport centre / 西營盤流浪 16. 我要迫自己一個人去做試多D野 =]" | | |
| 27/9 和小得馬丁Sammi去篤波 今次覺得自己真係開始有點兒屈機 > v < 走時的想法是...本來住沙田應該沒甚麼煩的... day-off 也很多...應該也可以約 fd 玩的... 但是這樣一搞...下次見...唔知幾時... 就算想像下次可以一起再行山...um...可能沒可能了 = v =" 星期日大家去小得屋企玩...很引誘...> < 不過今個星期要返教會幫手...應該去...亦是應承了的...= v =
---------------------------------------------------------- 這星期壓力大得要命 =___=" 太多問題是「只能想, 不能立即解決」的...
絕大部份都是跟住 hall 有關
實際上由前幾日起...已經可以隨時搬進去... 又似乎不用 join o camp 那面 極多實用而鎖碎的 detail 不清楚, 又沒人可問 又因為不懂任何人的緣故...Starr 暫時對我而言都是個陌生的地方 近來發現, 自己心態也是頗不想獨立行事 那天抽完房之後, 到 713開門...左半有人住右半荒廢的房 想過31搬過去, 而且可能在那之前先搬一些... 因為31號無故出現似乎...很不對路 有點想 contact Judy, 但何東那邊的 o camp應該還未完 而且9月第一個 week 已經有心裡準備不能 online...不能問不能查 為了令自己不要瘋掉...昨晚list了要用的... 唉 T^T...很怕差了甚麼 最擔心的還是跟其他人相處...因為大部份人已經在 o camp 認識了 不過相信只要不是特別難相處的, 應該都沒問題吧... 所以說, 很想快點開學settle down =w=" 除此之外, 還有很快要交的其他文件...要填要print... 開學應該怎樣甚麼時間 exactly where 搭車去PP才可以預o岩時間?
(@_@" 同時醒起到Sept 3先會有學生證!!...)
還要在1st week 聯絡一下沙循那邊... =____=" 這一段時間也極不想用 $... 可能是地理位置的緣故, HKU對我而言, 不是想回就回去看一看就去的地方... 幸好有已經有不少朋友的幫忙之下...已經解決了一點煩人的問題 路過的朋友, 如果我 9月不停打電話俾你問問題
(就算平時不打開俾你的) ...請先別打我 = v =" 我果然是個自尋麻煩的人 | | |
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